Recently I have been obsessed with playing pool. YEs out of all things to be obsessed with I was not expecting to want to be good at a game of pool. Back in the day (I say that like I'm older or something...) I did one game of pool and the pool stick had somehow magically cut up the side of my finger BEcause of that incident I swore that I would no longer try to play pool. Years later I met my ex and he tried to convince me to play. With the way our relationship was, I was not interested. Not even in the slightest. He made it sound complicated and pressured me in a way I did not appreciate. So I refused.
Fast forward a year after that and I started getting serious with my current bf. We ended up at a local bar in Destin and somehow I ended up in a game of pool. I tried to refuse but in the end, I caved. A little apprehensive I played the game with my bf. I tried my best to not get too overwhelmed but after a few drinks and a game or two, I felt fine.
Ever since then I play the occasional game and I do enjoy it. I'm not very good at playing but I do enjoy the spirit of the game itself and trying to get the balls into their designated pockets. I enjoy trying to do trick shots and just having fun at a bar. I'm not a heavy drinker like some of our friends so for me it's a great pass time and it helps me to get to know people. About two weeks ago I started to play more of the game and I even convinced my friend to play with me once a week at the local bar in Destin. She agreed. Just the two of us shooting pool for a few hours having a blast sounded like a great pass time and I honestly was happy someone was as into it as I am. With us playing a one on one game I am getting to know her better and I'm enjoying the game more than before. She and I are evenly matched so it's nice to be with someone who is on the same level and not just stand to the side while the other person runs the table.
It's funny how things change throughout our lives. I never thought I would enjoy the pool the way I do now. But thanks to my boyfriend I now enjoy the game and can play pretty well. I can somewhat hold up to others. It's nice to know that I have changed in this way. I hope that I continue to see these changes and appreciate them as they come into my life. After all, we only have one life and we should appreciate the things that come our way, good and bad.
Lylah and I went on a trail yesterday that was about an hour away from where we live. When I got home I started doing my best to get outside with her at least once a week but recently its been difficult with a bunch of rain we have been getting and with the fact that I have classes Monday- Friday (in the morning so really we can only go in the afternoon now). Yesterday the weather finally was good enough for us to head out and do some exploring. So once class was done we got in the car and headed out and got on the trail. Now the area we went to was Blackwater state park and it's one of the closer areas to "hike" in.
Getting out of the car we did a stretch and then headed out. In honesty, I had been needing the time alone in the forest. I needed the fresh air, the silence, and the sound of nature around me. The start to the new year has been busy and I'm stressed and exhausted but hopeful. This new job I'm taking on is a lot to absorb and it's nerve-wracking that I took a leap of faith with something I have no knowledge about. It's all about me taking that step forward and really being the writer of my own story. There's nobody to watch me, nobody to fix my mistakes, nobody approving my vacation times or telling me what I can or not do while I am doing that said job.
Even at home, it seems that things are going ok (there have been some problems here and there) and we're finally in a place where we can say that things are stable again but it's still exhausting.
Coming back home I had no idea what would be waiting for me and the adjustment from the travel life to normal life has been difficult. It took me a month to get back into the groove of actually waking up in my bedroom and not in a roll down bed in the back of a van. Having A.C, a fridge, a washer and dryer, and my disposal for whatever and whenever I needed it was a nice change but also a weird one. Honestly, it sounds like I'm being dramatic but 10 weeks on the road not knowing when you would get a shower or be able to wash your clothes or where you were when you woke up was all things that I was so unsure of. All things that were huge question marks the entire time I was gone and having them 24/7 now is a privilege that I have recognized.
So with this trail, we were on I got to take a deep breath and thank the universe that I am where I am now. I was able to make things happen and do what I enjoy. I'm taking a step in a direction I didn't expect and I am working to make those things happen for myself. I don't know what comes next and I don't know what the universe has for me but it was nice to acknowledge that I am one of the lucky ones. The world is hectic and everything is stressful and exhausting. Getting outside was what I needed yesterday and of course, when we were done I got a drink at one of my favorite bars (we did 7 miles I earned that drink) and reminded myself that things are good where they are now and things will work out one way or another.
Well I guess I can say that 2021 is off to an interesting start. As we all should know (and if you don't know then I have no idea where you have been but here is some news!) some protesters stormed the capitol building. Because of that people are really taking the time to give their opinions on the matter and are making noise about how disgusting it is, how wrong it was, how trump was the big boss at the end, blah blah blah. Honestly, it was one of those things that I was drinking to when it happened. Everyone was saying that 2021 would be the year we go back to "normal" and I think a lot of people had a sad reality throwing into their faces like a brick. It hurt and it made you realize how stupid it was for thinking something like that. Sure we can fantasize how the normalcy will come back once midnight stuck and just like Cinderella everything magically goes back to the way it was.
Here's the truth though for those that do live in that magical bubble. Were all screwed. We have been for a long time and there's always something going on in this big bad world. 2020 was just the year that the veil got burned off and the truth about what's going on got revealed and now people can't seem to take their eyes off of the news and can't seem to backtrack into a quieter life. How could you when there's so much fake news, people screaming, forests burning, and now mobs storming our nation's capital? It's like a drug we can't seem to get enough of. Just gotta keep the high going.
Now I do think that the storming of the capital was unnecessary and just added a dramatic effect over the way things are but hey, I don't control people and their actions. I just sit here and see it happen from the screens that are in my home and public spaces. ITs entertainment before this gets worse than it is and I have a feeling 2021 is going to be either just as bad or worse as 2020. I don't want it to be that way and I desperately hope that something changes but right now, I'm not as hopeful as I would like to be.
We will see what is up next in our new normal.
Has anyone made any New Year resolutions? I know with covid still being a slight problem (I say slightly with tons of sarcasm) it may have put a damper on certain ideals of what we want to do for the year. I know for me it makes traveling out of the country uncertain. Yet I would love to do at least one trip out of the United States sometime soon. Peru, Switzerland, Norway, or Ireland. Any of those would be a treat and just one more place off my list. With that being said I know that I have to first get my job rolling and when that happens I can finally start saving appropriately.
With traveling aside I do have a few resolutions that I do hope come to fruition.
1)Move to a new state
2)get back into my normal running routine
3) Visit one "new" country (if possible)
4) Figure out a healthy routine since I will be working from home
Those are really it. Now the moving part will be a lot but I am excited to start this chapter that I have skipped for years. I have realized it's time to stop skipping the things I want to do because If I keep doing that, I might get stuck and never move out of my comfort zone. I may never really find who I am. There are so many things that in the unknown and I am ready to take the leap and discover what else there is in this world. Being somewhere where I can live a more active lifestyle for not only me but for my fur baby as well.
If you have any new years resolutions I hope that the year goes smoothly and you get to achieve the goals you set for yourself. It might be a struggle but never give up. We got this.
The new year is close. 2021 is the year we all have been holding our breath for and I'm sure that a good amount of people are excited to put 2020 behind them but I mean, we have no idea what the next year will hold for us. It could even be worse than 2020 itself but the only way to find out is the dive right in and hope that things get better. Only two days left to go and then everything will start over.
But with that being said I do hope everyone had a great Christmas. I know that I really enjoyed getting away and seeing my dad this year in his new home. We drove up on the 23rd and got in super late. From where we are in Florida it's an 8-hour drive and my boyfriend had to work that day so of course, we left right after he got off and made the trip up. Let me say, even though we got in in the early hours of the morning I am so glad we took the chance and drove up when we did. The news had given us a warning that on Christmas even there would be a big storm that would bring rain, snow, and possibly a freeze over. Looking at the map I noticed that the area my dad lives in was in the line of fire and that made me worry. I knew that both of our cars didn't have snow tires even though my bf had grown up in the snow and ice I wasn't feeling the chance of crashing because of black ice. So of course we made it work out and got in at a crazy hour.
On Christmas Eve we were able to go to one of the bars and have some food before we got plastered with rain, followed by snow. I was excited because I've never had a white Christmas (or at least one that I can remember) and this was a new experience. Not only that but Lylah hadn't really been able to play in the snow all that much and I was excited for her to experience it and to have some fun.
With the snow falling everywhere we stayed inside, played some games, watched movies, and a few drinks, and just enjoyed being warm and having a quiet but fun celebration together. It was a great time.
Christmas day brought a white scenery that Lylah and I were ecstatic about. We went outside and she went bannanas. She ran all around, stuck her face in the snow, dug up the snow to stick her head in rabbit holes, and just gave me so much joy seeing her so happy. The husky in her is super strong and I was more than happy to give her some joy and give her a taste of what our future will have.
I'm not going to lie, I had a lot of time this year to really think about what I need and I have had a lot of time to digest what is around me. There's a lot of things in my life that is so rocky but this little trip helped me in regrounding myself. No Matter what happens and no matter what comes in this next year I know that it's all for a reason and it's ok. It's ok to be unsure, it's ok to have the good, bad, and ugly on your doorstep. You just have to pick it up, take it as it is, and move on. 2021 might be a challenge and full of change but I think it will be ok in the end.
Let's see what this next year will do for me.
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