I think that for one year I have had enough death. It's been very difficult to keep this all together and it has been a very tiring time. Most of the deaths that have occurred have happened in the past three months and I can say that it has happened like a stack of domino's . Some of it was expected due to some of them being cancer related and others have been very unexpected and very tragic . To be honest I'm not sure how I am keeping it together but somehow I am. 

I think death does a lot of things to the mind and can really tire someone out, especially when you have experienced lots of it so quickly. For me I think it's a slow approaching sort of tired and I know it will hit me soon. I have been holding myself up and trying to keep my composure but I honestly think that once I am on this new Zealand trip I will have the time I need to collect myself and mourn. There will be plenty of time to think, plenty of time to drink, and plenty of time to explore this country that I have always wanted to see.

I know death is apart of life and I know that most people have had to come face to face with it one way or another . I just didn't think it would be in these terms and that it would be so many incidents back to back . I can't wait to get away and to recharge. To take time to mourn and not be hounded by everyone around me. It will be much needed time to get away and when I get back I am sure I will feel much better.

Death is never easy and it is something that we all must face.