I think one of the hardest things I have come across is the actual motion of saying goodbye to someone. You get so used to having that person there to talk to, to drink with or smoke with, someone to have your back when the hard times arrive and when the good come along. Today I learned that lesson again. Another friend leaving our strange corner of the world. Its good. Hes wanted to leave for forever and I know he will do amazing out there and make a good name for himself. It’s the actual part where he really leaves that is so hard to process. For years ive been getting to know this guy, not always hanging out but when we do we make it count as much as we can. We talk and talk and talk about everything and anything we are feeling. We let each others feelings known and we process and share what we are thinking on equal grounds.

Ironically I ended up going through a hard time that caused me to be stressed out and feeling very alone and he reached out and offered comfort. So simple. So easy. So quick to be to the point that it took less then ten words to receive kindness. During our beautiful time together over the past two days I experienced a different side to him. A side that I am grateful I got to see and I got be there for. If only time wasn’t so quick in this world. Time itself steals what we treasure. Friends are just one of my many treasures. I trust so few and there are even fewer that I consider to be like an equal to me. To be able to just make someone feel like they have a special moment is what I live for. To be honest I wanted so much more time to be able to see more and be there for him more. Time is such a burden. Time is a stealer.

Before I knew it was I back in my house thinking about what I wanted to do myself. He was leaving and I don’t have any roots to connect me here. Why should I stay? It stirred questions and made me feel alone when I got back. For two days I had been around him, laughing with him, and being so raw and now its just me.

I know this isnt a real goodbye and I know that we will cross paths sooner rather then later since I travel so often. I know that I will find him again and we will catch up like no time has passed at all. I know that we will stay in touch whenever we can because that’s just how we are to one another. We aren't always around one another but when we do meet up its like old friends reunite and just start things back up where they left off. I tell people that I enjoy spending time with that I love them and so without further ado my friend,

"I Love You.

I love you so much and I know that this is an amazing opportunity for you to start over. I know that this will be better and I know that you are ready to move onward. For the years we spent together I thank you for every single conversation. I thank you for every single comfort of words. I thank you for telling me to be confident in how I look. I thank you for being you and not fake like most people are. I am so happy I have met you and I am so sad to say goodbye and yea I am crying because the feels train just pulled into the station but hey, they are tears of happiness and joy.

Safe Travels my friend, we will meet again sooner the you can think. Don’t forget about me.

Doll"