Hello everyone! 

   Life has been exhausting. Currenly I am working two jobs. The one job I have been working for, for almost three years. The other I just started and it has been quite the doozy. Its a super detailed Tech support job adn I am not 100% if it ifor sure me yet. The good news is im getting paid for giving it a try which I am grateful for. The first day I started going and taking calls I was sweating with no idea what I was doing. Now when I take calls I sit there doing my best to figure it out but unsure on the solution. Its been a trail and error and I have no idea how it will play out. Im not comfortable and the classes I took for two weeks were pratically useless. It was like being thrown back in high school where they just talk and expect you to absorb that way and be all set. Im a visual and repeative learner. Meaning I have to get into the systems and have a video guide that I can use for step by step processes. 

Once I do that I get comfortable and can go from there. But this class was not like that. So im not sure how this new job will go. We will see how it turns out. If it doesnt work out I will try again with a different company. After all, not everything is for made for EVERYONE. 

With that being said I am also working on the Van, traveling on the weekends with my BF and trying to maintain some kind of life where I get out of the house. 

Its been a rollercoster. 

I will make a seperate post about what has happened with the van and the discovery we have made. Its quite good. 

For now I have art pieces that are for sale and looking for a new home. Im hoping ot make some time over the holidays to make some spraypaint work. I have been so tired recently that I just have not been wanting to get my supplies out. Hoping that I have time over Thanksgiving. 

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This piece is for sale and is looking for a new home! 

Criss Cross Applesauce 9*12 $120

It's strange to be home during this time of the year. I know that I'm making the changes needed to move forward but I'm not a fan of being stuck in one place when I could be out hiking trails all over the western side of the state. It bums me out a bit and really makes concentrating hard. All I can think about these days is just being out on the trail or having some quiet. 

Once you get a taste of what you love it's hard to put it on stand-by, even if it is for a good reason (like switching jobs).

For now, I'm taking the time to get ready for training and while I am nervous I'm ready to get this over with. It's one of those things that would be good financially but I hate classes. They bore me and while it will be helpful in the long term to know what I'm doing I also know how I am when it comes to training where I have to listen instead of doing the motions. Luckily the verbal abuse is only for a week and then it's a mix of verbal with actual action like learning. 

While this is going on I will be still working at my current job because I still need to make money so I will be juggling both jobs for a short time. Or at least that is the plan currently. 

I don't know what the plan is from here besides making more money but I am planning to do something in January/Feb time frame and am hoping for suggestions for the Southern part of the United States. If anyone knows any trails or anywhere to visit shoot me a message. Any are appreciated. 

For now, I shall sit, learn, and dream of faraway places. 

With the start of anything new, there are always nerves. 

In one week I will be starting training for a new job. It matches what I was looking for and is a good stand-in for the time being as I continue to search for something else. The job itself is a middle ground to help small businesses manage accounts through QuickBooks. It's more money, regular work hours, I get weekends off, AND HOLIDAYS. I still get to work from home and pick my own hours. Honestly, I don't know what to expect and I'm pretty nervous about starting this new job but with time I'm sure I will quickly get the hang of it. 

The job I'm currently working for just isn't working anymore and with their new "requirements" preventing me from traveling I knew that the universe was finally giving me the kick in the ass to find something else. Sometimes all it takes is a touch of reality to get you moving. 

Of course, this isn't the end of my search but it is a step in the right direction. For me it's a step up in pay which I desperately need and it will give me the ability to finally travel again once I have everything down. Ideally, I'm looking for a job where I don't have to talk to people at all and I'm keeping my eyes peeled at those opportunities and have them bookmarked for when they do have more spots open. You best believe that is the END goal. I don't mind people but these days I rather work undisturbed and the older I get the more stupid I realize people can be. Not saying that everyone is stupid because that isn't true but in the customer service industry you get asked questions that make you want to roll your eyes, grab the person, and give them a real HARD shake. Like why are you asking these questions when you ALREADY know the answer? 

So I'm slowly making my way away from people-pleasing/talking jobs. 

I'm excited, nervous but ready to move on. For now (with my current job) I am limping on through the clients rolling my eyes and every time I get a call that I'm not getting paid more than average to handle, I transfer them and say

"Not my monkeys, not my circus"

Finally, things are starting to turn around a little bit. 

Hello Everyone! I hope you all are doing well on this fine Friday afternoon. 

   I am here with some news regarding my travels and life updates. 

A few months ago I discovered that my current job won't let me travel and work anymore. This was discovered when I tried to get into the system while traveling up to P.A to visit my partner's family. He was driving nad I was supposed to log on for an hour and the system kicked me out. This was new information since about a month before it worked fine. It was slow but it still managed to log me in and let me do normal work functions. 

I'm not going to lie this was disheartening as it meant that I could not longer attempt to do another trip in the van with this job. Im not saying I like the job but with this discovery, I realized that I was screwed from doing what I love. Last year it was amazing and even though I had van trouble in the end I still enjoyed every waking minute of being able to wake up in a new place, work my day away, and then go on an afternoon hike with Lylah. It boosted my spirits and made work bearable. Now I'm stuck once again. 

Of course, I should have seen it coming as they did announce that they were changing their systems around so who knew what was going on but it still made me sad to realize that I couldn't go forward with my plans. 

So I'm looking into new work and I've found some promising options to move forward with. Ones that don't require a hard-wired connection and ones that will allow me to get a few months in the new year living in my van. I'm not 100% sure what I will choose yet but I am keeping an eye on different possibilities daily and know that I will need to decide soon since my current contract ends at the end of October. 

With that being said im hopefully to stay in the South part of the United States and trael in January and February to see new things since i havent explore much of New Mexico, Arizona or Nevada. So who knows. Im Keeping my eyes open on what opporunities come my way. 

But for now it seems weekend trips will have to be a thing for some solo hiking in the East with Lylah and hopefully that will help my sanity some. 

More posts coming your way. Stay tuned. 

A lot of people have mixed feelings about school. Some people have a wonderful time where you make tons of friends, you have an amazing boyfriend or girlfriend and you make good grades without a problem. You do trips together and you get to enjoy your adventurous life as a teen without interruption. Then there's the other side of the coin where you are unsure of who you are, what you want to do, you are sad, bullied, or depressed and it's hard to get through the day. Now some are in the middle of those two groups depending on where you stand in the social status of the people around you or depending on the extracurricular activities you participated in. 

Nonetheless, everyone was treated the same when it came to drills. Fire Drills, Tornado Drills, active shooter drills, and of course back in the day the bomb drill (or maybe the special hurricane drill if you lived somewhere like Florida). It didn't matter your status, what group you liked to be with, who your friends were, or who your mom and dad were. In the end, WE ALL had to do those drills. I remember a few times we did an active shooter drill. It wasn't a common one like a fire drill but once a year we did have this performance acted out and it was funny at the time. Of course, by saying it was funny, I mean that in a "were kids and this would never happen to us" kind of funny but in today's age most kids are not so lucky. 

In school, I was always aware of how serious these drills were, mostly because of my education in the art form of firearms. I knew the safety precautions, I knew how dangerous they could be, and I knew that you NEVER EVER Point it to anything you don't want to "kill" or harm. By the time I was twelve we had them in the house and I started shooting all kinds of guns. from pistols to an AR 15. Whatever my dad had I learned to shoot and whatever I shot I made sure to follow the rules to the best of my ability as a twelve-year-old. 

Most kids in school don't know what a gun is capable of and I think most of this is this soft age were living in. Were scared of vaccines, scared of germs, scared of weapons and making our children "monsters", scared to eat dairy for the cause of bloating, and scared of anything that moves. It's outrageous how our society has gotten to this point. We have gone soft on the kids with language and with sheltering from the big bad world. If children knew what firearms are really capable of I think that would solve most of the issues we have with them taking up weapons as a result of being depressed or as a form of rage. If we stop lying to our kids about the reality of our world and really tell them what's going on instead of sprinkling it with "pixie dust" it would really give them an insight into what they may face not only as children but as an adult and maybe just maybe more people would take action instead of sitting on their hands and wondering when the right time is to "help" so they don't get shot when that time does present itself (if ever).

Who knows. Maybe someday people will get their **** in order. Who really knows, only one can hope.