This past week has been crazy. I worked at my part time job for four days straight, I’ve put out a couple YouTube videos, The artwork is piling up because of inspired I have been this week, I ran almost a whole marathon (ran four times in a week) and now I leave tomorrow for an entire month of freedom and choices.
It’s weird when I think about going on this adventure. See I only have half of it planned out and I haven’t finalized that last part of the trip which may cause some problems but I can’t complain about the fact that I get to do this at all. I’m going to be hiking with my cat for about eleven days and from there I am driving out to Colorado to stay with a friend that I knew in elementary school. He knows the best place for pictures and I know I am excited about even getting to go to Colorado. It is one of my dream states to live in and I honestly couldn’t have asked for a better opportunity to see it.
There are so many people I want to see but some of those plans I made fell through due to poor timing and some problems with certain Koa's in the area. In reality I don’t feel comfortable with having Spice somewhere where she and I could be in danger. After all I have to leave my car behind in some areas and a tent with some of my belongings. So some of my plans just aren’t going to work for this trip.
But hey when another door closes, another opens. Or at least I’m sure that’s how the saying goes.
In any case I am ready for this opportunity and chance to let myself have control over what I decide and where I go. Of course I am going to be taking you guys with me and will be sharing the experience with you. I am ready for this journey and I just know that it is going to be epic.
I hope you all will follow me as I go on this adventure and stay tuned for all kinds of videos and photos.
I recently had an experience where my friend was in pain and had to call for help. In going through that experience I learned something about myself. I do not leave people alone, especially when they are in pain. I’m not the best person when it comes to reactions but I can tell you that I am pretty loyal when it comes to the people I love. It was all last second when the pain came to her and I really wasn’t expecting our breakfast date to take that turn but sometimes you get a wild card in life and you can either roll with it or get sucked into it and try to fight it while its happening. In this situation I rolled with it.
We had run to this new coffee shop in town and we were both really excited. It was a little over two miles and the weather in Florida had FINALLY turned to fall type weather. We had planned in advance since it had been a while since we chatted and this was a nice little chance to get things back on track. We both have a lot to do on a daily basis so it seemed like a nice start to the day. Of course we both were not expecting what happened, to actually happen.
I tried my best to stick with it flow with the situation. Someone I see as family is in pain and I wasn’t going to just go home and leave her. The moral of this little rant here is that I learned that even in a situation where it may seem random, awkward, or strange, I can still throw out a joke or two. They weren’t that funny but it was a nice way to try and make things seem better than they were. I know that I become very vulnerable when I get migraines and the pain drives me crazy. It makes me upset, angry, and in the fetal position wanting it to stop. No position helps, nothing I take dulls the pain, and I always feel like my mind is splitting open. So for me I can relate pretty well to pain and how bad pain can be.
I know I wasn’t expecting something like that to happen and I hope she is ok and recovers. She's family and really I do love her and I am very glad I met her but of course this isn’t about her, this about what I learned.
Sometimes the unexpected happens and I do believe everything happens for a reason. In this experience I think it taught me that my loyalty to others hasn’t died after all this time of being betrayed and left behind. Even though I have been hurt in more ways than one I now know that my loyalty is still fierce and is going strong. It’s always nice to know that some things about you never disappear, even when you thought it had.
So as some of you may or may not know I am in the process of buying a short bus. Why? Well I am going to buy a short bus so that I can renovate it into a house on wheels for Spice and I to live in. It’s way cheaper then purchasing an RV and I can also tow my car behind it without a problem. Now some people would be like "Why not just use your car as a place to sleep or hold your items?" Well...I have thought about that and I want an open space for Spice to be comfortable in and if I am in an area where it starts snowing I want to have heat. To most people this probably sounds insane but for me it sounds so perfect. I’m going to be taking my dream out on the road and making it real.
Right now my brother in Indiana is keeping an eye out for the perfect bus. One that is in good condition, not a lot of miles, diesel, and is just the right size for everything I am looking for. I will be still selling my artwork and I may even have a sale on the road sometime so you guys can even meet me in person. All of it is still a work in progress but I can tell you that I am so excited for this part of my life to begin. There are so many wonderful places on this planet that I want to see and now that I am old enough to do most things that the world holds back (since I’m 21) well...it means that I can finally embrace myself fully.
Life is way too short to do something you don’t enjoy and I plan to make the most out of this new chapter. I hope you guys are ready because when I am remodeling the bus I will be making YouTube videos of the process so you can see the transformation. I cannot wait and I hope you all will join me on this journey into the unknown!
I had a customer come in and tell me that she felt overwhelmed. She was a little bigger and her boyfriend was with her while they walked around the store. She slowly made her way to the chocolate case and started shaking her head. I waited a minute and then I asked if there was anything I could get for her out of the chocolate case. She looked up at me and shook her head slightly. I don’t know if she thought that I wouldn’t notice or maybe she was just telling me no. Either way I smile and told her that if she needed anything out of the case or if she changed her mind to let me know. She smirked and made a little laugh. She then says "I don’t know how you work here, I would eat all the chocolate in here" To me it seemed like a normal thing to say and I responded with
"Yea I have a pretty bad sweet tooth so I know what you mean" and without missing a beat she responded with,
"Yea but you don’t look like me" and instantly I shut up.
I don’t like to argue with people about their weight. I don’t know what they have been through, I don’t know if they have a condition and I certainly don’t want to get into it while I am at work. I think that there is still a stereotype that bigger people seem to have it harder than others. Personally I do have a problem with food and my relationship with it isn’t at its best. There are days when I look at food and I just don’t want anything to do with it. Then other days it’s in reverse and I overeat and I hate myself for it. My relationship with food is very on and off so to me it seems unfair that most people use it against people that look like me.
I may be "skinny" and I may run, look like I am happy and healthy but, you don’t know my story and you don’t know what I think about every day. You don’t know my struggles and honestly it kind of hit a cord with me when she said it. It’s been stuck in my head for weeks and sometimes I remember what she said while I’m eating something sweet. It’s been a while since I have had a customer’s opinion stick with me but this one did.
The lesson from all of this is to be mindful of what you say. You don’t know that person, you don’t know what they think and you don’t know what’s been happening in their life. I’m sure she didn’t mean for it to be something that I would think about or even write about. She probably thought I would dismiss it and move on with my life but, that’s obviously not the case.
Just please be mindful of other people and mam, I hope that whatever you are going through that it gets better for you and that you are able to keep moving forward and make strides towards goals you wish to do. All we can do, is keep battling the problems that we have and keep living.
I get asked this question a lot while I work at the Ice Cream shop.
"How do you Work here? I would be like 500 pounds"
I can see how most people think that is true. I mean you are in a chocolate shop surrounded by hand made chocolates, Premium Ice Cream, and Delicious Home Made Fudge. Sure it seems like working there would be a difficult task and for someone like me who loves sweets, it seems to be the number one way to gain the pounds. Yet I also believe that making money and keeping the money to pay bills and to pay for trips and is more important than my desire to scarf down all the food in the store.
We are constantly moving while we are working and if were not working were chatting and having a fun time so ninety percent of the time we are burning off the calories and just seizing the day with what we have in our store. We do the best customer service and always put our customers first. For us eating and knowing what our items taste like is important but, the happiness of our customers goes before our sweets.
Quite honestly it’s a little weird to try and answer that question for me. I’m a runner and I have a pretty high standard of what I want my body to look like and how to maintain that look. It’s not because I want to look sexy for anybody or that I am a model who is trying to keep her side job. It’s none of that. It’s just that I have a thing about keeping my body in the shape it’s in because I have been chubbier and it made me feel very insecure. The shape I’m in now took me a couple of years to achieve and I want to keep my body this way. Happy and Healthy.
So I can work at this awesome ice cream/fudge shop because I know I can control myself and I also know that I can go outside and run three miles at a seconds notice if I feel like I have eaten too many sweets.
Could you work in an ice cream shop?
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